another rejection

this rejection comes from USN, so my dream of becoming a pharmacist/blackjack dealer has faded away. oh man. i can't handle these rejections. they're having me fear about what my future will be like. i have two more chances and hopefully by the end of the week i should hear from one of them. i'm not quite sure about what to do if i don't get in. i don't like the pressure that is put on me to get in. my family is making me nervous. it's a good thing not many of my friends know i am applying. having to tell different people continuously that i didn't get in is not a cool feeling.

d'oh

I'm back from Amarillo and I can't say for certain about how I did at my interview. I think the interview session went ok. It was the group activity that I didn't fare to well. I was able to participate with the group but when it came time for the faculty challenge, I froze and didn't talk as much. Part of the reason was being nervous and, also, having the phone go off during my turn to present didn't help much. The phone was only vibrating but the room was dead silent. The only thing that was on my mind at that time was "oh shit did my phone just go off" and then it vibrated again and i was like, "oh DAMN...". So i started to ramble on about something i can't even recall anymore. At the same time I began moving my hands slowly towards the inside of my jacket where the phone was and turned it off. my luck eh? i had the the phone off during the interview but turned it on to check the time later that day and completely forgot about it. oh well. at least during my stay there, i got to see it snow.

Saturday

Today is Saturday and it is cold. What weird weather we are having. Not much happened in Vegas. I went there, walked around, and came back home. I didn't know what to do. I was only there by myself and only for a couple of days. I guess the highlight of the trip was eating a fried twinkie??? I don't know. I think my interview went a little better than my last one. I was able to answer almost all the questions this time, but it always could be better. At least, I am getting the hang of the interview process. Two more to go! oh boy

some stuff to remember: professionalism, diagnose, how do i know if the profession will be what i expect it to be

vegas

I'm headed to Vegas at the end of the week. My main priority there is an interview, but other than that I'm free to do anything. If that doesn't go well, maybe I'll end up a black jack dealer or something along that line.

Post #18

Everything seems to go by so quickly. Spring break has just passed. Another two months and I'll be out of school again. I was talking to a high school friend yesterday. It seems like everyone is off doing their own thing which is expected. It's just that everything seems so sudden. Not but 3 years ago we were all together in high school waiting to go to college. By next semester, we'll be all seniors. i guess everything seems to go by so much slower in high school for the fact that we were all spending around 8 hours a day in one building with rooms that all look similar. well, that's my post for today.

blogging just to blog

so i watched Stranger than Fiction the other day. yea i know pretty boring spring break huh? but i can't complain since it is my choice of wanting to do nothing. back to the movie, i thought it was actually good. it is not a typical will ferrell movie. his character is the exact opposite of the characters that he usually plays. i thought he was able to pull off the part. the movie starts off pretty slow, but later on it was interesting. it kept me engaged on wanting to know how it ends. overall it is a good movie, not great but good. then again, i am easily amused by the simplest things so others would probably think this movie is boring.

another random entry

it was pouring like crazy today. i managed to go to the gym despite the weather. i had nothing else to do. i don't like this weather one bit. i was looking forward to riding my bike over spring break. i really need the practice. ahh yea it sucks. i still have to practice my turns and i'm still not smooth at shifting gears yet. i have a long way to go before i get better. but yea.. my friend told me about a couple she knew that had died last night. they were walking and were hit by a speeding 17 year old with no license. the couple that died were young too, around 26 or so. i dont remember. it's tragic to go like that. it goes to show that you can die at any moment.