another rejection

this rejection comes from USN, so my dream of becoming a pharmacist/blackjack dealer has faded away. oh man. i can't handle these rejections. they're having me fear about what my future will be like. i have two more chances and hopefully by the end of the week i should hear from one of them. i'm not quite sure about what to do if i don't get in. i don't like the pressure that is put on me to get in. my family is making me nervous. it's a good thing not many of my friends know i am applying. having to tell different people continuously that i didn't get in is not a cool feeling.

d'oh

I'm back from Amarillo and I can't say for certain about how I did at my interview. I think the interview session went ok. It was the group activity that I didn't fare to well. I was able to participate with the group but when it came time for the faculty challenge, I froze and didn't talk as much. Part of the reason was being nervous and, also, having the phone go off during my turn to present didn't help much. The phone was only vibrating but the room was dead silent. The only thing that was on my mind at that time was "oh shit did my phone just go off" and then it vibrated again and i was like, "oh DAMN...". So i started to ramble on about something i can't even recall anymore. At the same time I began moving my hands slowly towards the inside of my jacket where the phone was and turned it off. my luck eh? i had the the phone off during the interview but turned it on to check the time later that day and completely forgot about it. oh well. at least during my stay there, i got to see it snow.

Saturday

Today is Saturday and it is cold. What weird weather we are having. Not much happened in Vegas. I went there, walked around, and came back home. I didn't know what to do. I was only there by myself and only for a couple of days. I guess the highlight of the trip was eating a fried twinkie??? I don't know. I think my interview went a little better than my last one. I was able to answer almost all the questions this time, but it always could be better. At least, I am getting the hang of the interview process. Two more to go! oh boy

some stuff to remember: professionalism, diagnose, how do i know if the profession will be what i expect it to be